Friday, January 22, 2016

little by little

We've experienced some bright, cold days in Oxford recently. But this morning dawned rainy and grey with a touch of melancholy.

[holywell street.]

Which, naturally, makes me think of Pablo Neruda poems. Because what better to recite to yourself on a gloomy January morning? 

If you Forget Me 

I want you to know 
one thing. 

You know how this is: 
if I look 
at the crystal moon, at the red branch
of the slow autumn at my window, 
if I touch 
near the fire
the impalpable ash 
or the wrinkled body of the log, 
everything carries me to you, 
as if everything that exists, 
aromas, light, metals, 
were little boats
that sail 
toward those isles of yours that wait for me.  

Well, now, 
if little by little you stop loving me
I shall stop loving you little by little. 

If suddenly 
you forget me 
do not look for me, 
for I shall already have forgotten you. 

If you think it long and mad, 
the wind of banners that passes through my life, 
and you decide 
to leave me at the shore
of the heart where I have roots, 
remember
that on that day, 
at that hour, 
I shall lift my arms 
and my roots will set off to seek another land. 

But
if each day, 
each hour, 
you feel that you are destined for me
with implacable sweetness, 
if each day a flower 
climbs up to your lips to seek me, 
ah my love, ah my own, 
in me all that fire is repeated, 
in me nothing is extinguished or forgotten, 
my love feeds on your love, beloved, 
and as long as you live it will be in your arms
without leaving mine. 


Friday, January 15, 2016

In the news . . .

If you were wondering what I did during my last year at BYU, this is a part of the answer. 

(I really wanted to make the link read: OXFORD MOM LEARNS WAY WEIRD TRICK, but I didn't. But obviously I still wanted to say it so I included it above. Anyway. I'm weird. Moving on.) 

I got the chance to work on a great project with Professor Jill Rudy on fairy tales in television. You should definitely check out the article and check out the teleogrpahy we created. 

(Also, I am counting this as making it onto the BYU homepage. Bucketlist check!) 

Thursday, January 14, 2016

we'll be present at the birth of old faith looking new

Though nothing can bring back the hour
Of splendour in the grass, of glory in the flower; 
We will grieve not, rather find
Strength in what remains behind; 
--William Wordsworth, "Intimations of Immortality from Recollections of Early Childhood"



 
[Kirkstall Abbey.]

Because romantic poetry and abbeys go together like bread and butter. 

Wednesday, January 13, 2016

Out on the wiley, windy moors

One of the great things about this year in England is that I have family relatively close by. And they let me come and bother them every once in awhile.

And then they are kind enough to indulge me in literary pilgrimages.

[L. is obviously really excited to be here.]

This time we went up to Haworth, which is the home of the Bronte sisters. I first read Jane Eyre in ninth grade, and then I read Wuthering Heights in my senior year of high school.

[Welcome to downtown Haworth. Charming, no?]


I liked Jane Eyre a lot more. A lot more.

["Eyres and Graces." HaHA.]

That being said, when one is on the moors--and when those moors are named Heathcliff, and when those moors are the inspiration for Wuthering Heights--you take a picture on said moors and you call out "Heathcliff!!!"



As one does on the Yorkshire moors. I mean, how could you not?

I think I'll go to Boston

Over the break I had the opportunity to go to Boston and work in the Massachusetts Historical Society's archives, where I pored over the Adams Papers. (Hurray for funded research trips and double-hurray for productive research trips.)

I love Boston. I've loved it since I was two. And it was good to be reminded of my love for this city.

[Boston in the morning.]

[Boston in the evening.]

I have some great friends in the Boston area and they were so kind to let me stay with them and show me their city. 

[Lucy and I explored the Boston Back Bay area together.]

[Boston Women's Memorial. Also, this is what I look like after 7 hours in the archives. A bit disheveled and sporting the Marian Librarian look. What can I say? It's what I do best.]

My friend Sarah also hosted me while I was in Boston. I don't have any pictures (sad), but she is a gem. And it was so fun seeing her after five years--we hadn't seen each other since 2011, I think. That feels like an entire lifetime ago. But you know those people who it doesn't seem to matter how long it's been since you last talked, you get back together and can still talk easily and deeply? Thanks for being one of those people, Sarah. 

Also, it was just kind of fun to be back on the American side of the pond, seeing American history up close and personal. It was doubly delightful being in Massachusetts, the birthplace of the American Revolution, knowing that I'd be returning to England . . . it was just funny to me. 

[Church where Massachusetts ratified the Constitution.]

[Old North Church. "One if by land, two if by sea."]

["Listen my children, and you shall hear of the midnight ride of Paul Revere." Who didn't actually say "The British are Coming." But whatever.]

Also, for as many times as I've been to Boston, I had never seen the Boston Public Library. And guess what? It's beautiful. 




Boston always seems to get me to come back in some way or another. Glad to give her another chance. 

Sometimes I play nice with my siblings

. . . just some pictures from the Christmas break.




[Nothing like a White Christmas and fresh mountain air.]



[Christmas goodies from Father Christmas and Ded Moroz. And Christmas crackers round the table.]

[And the inevitable sibling selfie session that happened after Christmas crackers.]

[We are all glad Katy has such long arms. She was a born selfie-taker.]

[Typical.]

[Christmas crackers and Christmas jammies!]

Why anyone lets us out of the house is beyond me.

Tuesday, January 12, 2016

That I may learn from vaulted skies



Back in Oxford.
It's "noughth" week. Which I don't really know
if I'm spelling it right
and I sure know that I would
pronounce it incorrectly.

I'm trying to get some work done--
essays revised, books read,
applications started--
before the true beginning of term.

And I realized yesterday
that getting back from holiday
even if you are returning to Hogwarts
still means that it's the end of holiday.

But I also know
that we paint the past
in poignant hues of nostalgia,
the future in neon expectation,
but we save our favorite hues
of rainy grey for the present.

So today, while I crafted an essay
and inwardly groaned at the amount
of reading I will have to do this term,
and petitioned heaven for a twenty-fifth hour
(or at least for time to stand still),
I decided to be grateful for present moments
that have already become memory.

Grateful for friends who lend me umbrellas
and grace me with conversation.
Grateful for vaulted roofs
and stone walls.
And grateful for the rainwater
which slowly seeped
through my well-worn boots
as I made my way
home.